so i was kinda starting to freak out this last week.
i mean, seriously? there are only nine weeks left. nine single-digit weeks. we have such a great routine right now, i get a generous break everyday while parker naps, he can feed himself & put on {and put away!} his shoes, and he can pretty much always communicate what is making him mad when there is a problem. we're at a really good place & lately it's been a little hard to swallow how much all of that is gonna change in just two short months. i was in a funk & honestly, feeling a little sorry for myself about how hard life is gonna be for a while.
yesterday i had a reality check. i have no room to feel anything but completely blessed & grateful.
i was standing at an atm next to a bulletin board filled with want ads & for sale posts. one post was a lady giving out her number asking for work around your house... cleaning, organizing, whatever, she just needed extra money to make ends meet. another post caught my eye... a guy who was selling his car so he could buy his wife a special wheelchair since she had MS and her health was deteriorating.
i withdrew money from the atm & walked back to my car & drove home to my warm house filled with my amazing husband & happy little boy. the whole way there i felt kicks from the healthy baby inside my belly & felt ashamed for feeling sorry for myself. how could i possibly have room to complain when there are people all around me with real problems & legitimate reasons to feel sorry for themselves? i felt like a jerk.
so now? i am trying to look ahead with nothing but gratitude & excitement. i mean, i'm still nervous to go through labor again {OUCH} but i am ecstatic to get this little boy here & start our lives as a little family of four. yes, it's gonna be sleepless nights & days without a break all over again but it's gonna be so SO worth it.
on another note, MY BABY SHOWER IS TOMORROW!! can i just say i have the best best-friends ever? my girlfriends have put so much work into this shower & have snuck around making all sorts of plans & i am so beyond excited to see what they've been up to. can't wait to share pictures!
and as for baby boy? he is moving like crazy. i swear he's moving more often than not & my belly is rolling all around from his ninja kicks & break dancing maneuvers 24/7. babycenter.com says this is the peak of baby boy's movement in the belly since room gets tighter here on out, so i'm gonna enjoy this while it lasts.
i love his little activities so much! just can't wait to see them in person.
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