hawaii. worth giving up cookies for?

***my face is superimposed via photoshop. if you couldn't tell, i laugh at you. and i think we should be best friends.***

i am officially counting down to our maui trip in t minus two & a half months, & part of this countdown includes thinking about how i should be watching what i eat a bit more. a swimsuit in january doesn't bode well with my usual holiday gluttony.

these thoughts include stuff like, "ya know, maybe i shouldn't make four-dozen cookies for the third time in two weeks" or, "late night DQ blizzard run? we should probably go on a late night fruit-stand run instead." i think about it, & then i laugh at how ridiculous i sound. because who wants fruit when you can have an oreo cookie jar blizzard? and who wants to eat healthy around the holidays?

i have been doing pretty good with the work outs. stroller strides is getting me out of the house & making me sweat three times a week, & i'm liking it. but when i come home & throw down a couple chocolate-chip pumpkin cookies, i may as well of been sitting on the couch eating bon-bons the whole time.

and when i say a couple, i mean, a-couple-every-time-i-walk-into-the-kitchen.

now here's my problem. i don't want to stop eating this crap. i like eating junk. i love baking seasonal goodies, & i love going to get ice cream with my family. it's fun. i know that my work outs cancel out some of it, but seriously? i don't want to put sam & myself on the fast track to diabetes. i need to be healthier. i need to set a precedence that will not lead parker into a life of childhood obesity.

so. i'm a gonna be better. i have got to break this sugar addiction, & i've got to do it for the right reasons. my motto in life has always been, "everything in moderation. including moderation." i've gotta return to this. sure, ice cream on the weekend should be fine. because? a lifetime without ice cream isn't a life i want to live. but ice cream on friday, ice cream & birthday cake saturday afternoon, a batch of cookies saturday night, repeat on sunday... isn't good.

i resolve to limit myself to one cookie after a meal, & indulge in a real dessert one day on the weekend. starting. right. now.

and bonus? maybe i'll look alright in a swimsuit come january. and maybe i won't have to superimpose my head onto girls with better bodies than me. maybe.