i had my first emotional meltdown of the pregnancy.
blame it on being exhausted {up til 2 am the night before with a sleepless-sick kiddo}, on pregnancy hormones, on a week of having a sick/cranky/irritable/out-of-sorts kid, on being worried about an upcoming weekend away from said-kid... whatever. it happened. you know when you get to the point of just letting it all out? crying because it feels good to cry? yeah, that. poor sam took the brunt of it. he made a comment that was meant to be a joke {i'm sure he was making fun of me for using one of my million forms of social media...} but it struck me wrong {i'm sure i felt he was being "unsupportive"} & boom went the floodgates. looking back? it was an overreaction, it was a meltdown. but for some reason it made me feel better. weird, right?
usually i am pretty dang level-headed. i can hold on to things & deal with them as they come & not let it all boil over. i even pride myself on that... i'm mellow. but on sunday little things added up to a lot. stress about how the heck we're fitting two kids into one tiny room, how parker will adjust to getting kicked out of his crib in a month, worry over finding a sitter willing to babysit my sick kid so i can avoid calling into work sick again & last but not least? worry about leaving parker this weekend while sam & i fly to st. louis.
so after getting all this out to sam & realizing not every one of those issues needed to be resolved right that second i felt completely fine. actually, i felt silly for freaking out. i got a text from our sitter saying she was available at the last second to watch parker so i wouldn't have to call in sick again & i'm starting to get really excited for a weekend alone with sam instead of worried. i got a good night of sleep last night & i found some really cute shared-bedroom ideas on pinterest. it's all gonna be fine.
i'm chalking this one up to being an overly-tired-hormonal-pregnant woman... i'm allowed to do that, right? the answer is yes. because i've made it 25/40ths through my pregnancy & am just now having my first breakdown.
i'd say that's pretty good.
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