real life - 2.5 weeks

all the family have left, the holiday weekend is over & sam is back to a normal work schedule.  i had my first full day home alone with both boys yesterday.  i wish i was one of those bloggers that could put on a happy face & say it was perfect & routine & everything went to plan & there were no meltdowns or panicked calls to sam asking for a pep talk.  but i'd be lying.

first, i wish i had written some more of the "real" details of when parker was a newborn in my blog back in the day.  i look back to see what life was like with him at elliot's age & i seem to only touch on the good stuff.  but i definitely remember some low points.  i'm gonna be real this time around.

yesterday had some high points & some low points.  elliot did awesome in the moby for a big part of the day which was a lifesaver.  i was able to change parker diapers, make breakfast & even do puzzles with parker while elliot snoozed in the wrap.  

lowpoints?  elliot woke up every other hour the night before & parker was up for the day at 6:30... about an hour & a half earlier than normal.  it's not fun to start your day off feeling more tired than when you went to bed.  also, a local transformer blew & we lost power just before lunchtime {call me lame but electricity was kind of a big part of my game plan for the day... what was i gonna do with no internet, tv or microwave??  we're in survival mode here, people} & parker hysterically fought his nap with screams & wall kicks.  that was NOT fun.

but at the same time as this two kid business is kicking my butt, i also kinda feel like i'm doing ok.  i'm much more relaxed this time around & not as "scared" of elliot as i was of parker.  i'm already a mom this time, i've done it before.  i feel like i'm enjoying my newborn a little bit more.  i'm not scared of elliot waking up & me not knowing what to do... he doesn't intimidate me like parker did.  everything was new & was my first time with parker, which was exciting & scary all at once.  with elliot, i'm well practiced.  sure he's gonna throw me some curve balls, no doubt, but i'll roll with it.  

i asked moms of two or more on my facebook page how long it took them to get into a good routine with their new baby in the mix & got answers ranging anywhere from two weeks to six months.  i really really hope it happens faster than six months for us.  

it's hard not to wish away these early days of no sleep, very little social activity, no working out & a baby that hardly interacts.  these early days are hard & i'd be lying if i said i didn't think a lot about getting to elliot's three month mark where i know life will be a little more normal.  but at the same time, i'm resisting.  i'm really trying to enjoy all the little things about my curious, wide eyed newborn who curls up in a ball on my chest to sleep, makes all kinds of silly snorts, grunts & squeals & wants really not much else in life other than to be held, rocked & fed by me.  elliot is such a sweet baby & i'm trying to soak up every single moment because even though these days are long & feel endless, i know they'll be over before i know it.