look! there's a baby in there! and now i feel like i'm pregnant. i feel like i can't hold in my stomach any more or attempt at looking not-pregnant when in public. that poochy tummy is out there for all to see. and that's good right? that's what we want. a growing belly!
yup, i heard baby's heartbeat for the fourth time this week. why? because i am an incessant worrier with an obliging doctor's office. they are awesome in that the nurses at my OB's office will let you call with just a few minutes notice & then before you know it you're laying on a bed listening to your baby's heartbeat. it is music to my ears, every. single. time. you're in & out in ten minutes with a whole lotta reassurance that everything is ok. because i worry a lot. i mean, it's such a weird time period in pregnancy... your symptoms are dwindling but yet you don't have the constant movement/kicking from baby to assure you that everything is ok.
last week i said i had a premonition of kid two's gender. welp, i'm back to having absolutely no idea. some things with this pregnancy are very different from parker & some things are exactly the same. i just have no idea what this baby is gonna be... hopefully either a boy or a girl.
i am so anxious for our big ultrasound. not only because i can't WAIT to know if it's a mini amy or mini sam #2 in there but because there are so many other questions that you get some answers to. are the vital organs forming ok? what does my baby's little profile look like? is baby the right size? are its bones strong & in place? is my body doing everything right in there?
these are the questions that run through my head constantly. and i'd like to think the ultrasound will ease all these fears but i know better than that. i know by now that this is just the beginning of a lifetime of worry for my little baby.
and i already love that little avocado in my tummy so very, very much.
{i'm linking up with the "my pregnancy journal" meme over at happenings of the harper household. if you're prego & blogging about it, then you should too!}
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