parker lately.

i can't get enough of this little guy lately.  parker is in this stage where i swear it's impossible he could ever get any cuter.  if i could freeze him in this stage of life, i just might.

he is giggly, he is funny, he makes jokes, he plays games, he loves reading stories on his big boy bed, he gets crazy excited over his elmo potty, he is obsessed with thomas trains, he claps his hands and yells "yayyyy!" every time we finish singing a song, he picks out what toys will come along for the ride when we run errands, we have an awesome daily routine & he is just my little buddy.  of course, he has his two year old moments... there are tantrums, there are time outs & i've gotten smacked in the face more times than i can count but even that kinda makes me laugh.  i love seeing him grow up & have real emotions. 

we have conversations.  i remember holding him as a newborn & wondering what talking to this little baby in my arms would be like someday.  the thought blew my mind.  and now, as we drive down the road talking about seeing fireworks at the baseball game, petting horses in san diego or going home to see daddy, it's happening.  he's becoming a little person & i'm the mom to a little kid.

at every stage i can't picture loving him anymore than i do now.  but somehow he just continues to get more & more fun & being a mom becomes more & more rewarding.

i've worried a little bit about how he'll adjust to our new family member.  but lately?  i'm just so excited for him to become a big brother.  i know he'll be great.  he talks all the time about "parker's baby brother" & has even talked about bringing baby brother home.  now that he's in a big boy bed he refers to his crib as "parker's baby brother's bed" & loves to climb in & around his baby brother's carseat.  sometimes i actually worry that this new baby will pick on parker, he is just that sweet.

i like to think we're doing something right with him.  he is my best achievement to date & another advantage to freezing time would be not screwing it up.  i'm not ready to watch him be influenced by kids at school or to see his heart get broken by some cute girl.  he's never stayed out past curfew, he's never taken our car & done donuts in a parking lot, he's never put off homework or lied to me about where he was.  i'm not ready for that.

he gives the best hugs & kisses & holding his hand is one of my favorite pastimes.  i think i'll still make him do those things twenty years from now.  that's not weird, right?  i'm his mom & he'll always be my little boy... no matter how big he gets.

love him so much.