feelin' the passion.

if you clicked on this post in your reader cuz you thought it might contain some steamy juicy details about my home life, you will be sorely disappointed.  no steamy details here folks.  this is all about me & my current love of life.  yup.  sounds super cliche right?  blogger writes about how wonderful life is.  *yawn.*  but sorry, this is me being cliche.  i'm just in a happy place right now i guess.

i am having a BLAST with this photography stuff you guys.  i can feel myself getting better with each session & really finding my style & getting better in my editing.  i've made enough to pay for a lens upgrade & hope to be upgrading my camera soon too.  that?  gives me butterflies.  so what if at the end of the day i made absolutely no profit... right?  ha.  money is overrated.

but seriously, i am addicted to photography at the moment {don't let your eyes fool you... that says pho-tog-raphy}.  i live eat & sleep this new business.  and i can't get enough of it.  i have to force myself to do other things because i don't want to burn out in a week, but if it was up to me?  i'd set up 14 sessions a week, i'd edit pictures 24/7.  i'd email perspective clients all day long,  i'd revamp my pricing sheets & my invoice forms & update the photography facebook page nonstop.  it's like i'm back playing "business" as a kid.  what?  you didn't set up folders with labels & have a briefcase with files in it & arrange inboxes around your room as a kid?  loser.

ok, i know that this is more than just fun & games.  eventually the novelty will wear off & it will feel like what it is.  work.  there may even come a day when i'm not enjoying it & the financial gains aren't panning out & i become another statistic... because the odds are against me.  did you know that 85% of all photographers don't make it into their 3rd year?  true fact.  but the fact of the matter is that right now i'm feeling this.  it's something i am super excited about & when i wake up in the morning it makes me happy.  so i'm sticking with it.

this also brings me to another topic... finding your passion.  why did it take me {almost} thirty years to find something i absolutely love & feel like truly brings out the real me?  and since it did take that long, why is it ok that we're supposed to decide our life's career path at 18-19 years old?  not cool society.  not cool.

but despite the fact that it's taken me this long to take the plunge, i'm glad i did.  and i'm grateful for all the support & good feedback i've gotten by those around me.  sam has been an awesome cheerleader/business manager/advisor/idea-bouncer-offer as well as my friends & family.  and i've had awesome clients that have made the experience awesome so far too.

and then there's this guy.  he makes me happy too.  so there's that.